Breaking down point.

I broke down today. I feel like my life is so out of order and a complete mess. I just don't know what to do, I've broken down in the past months 5 times. I don't know where to start with this blog...My boy friend of 5 months (Justin) forgot our 5 month anniversty, is always insulting me, teasing me, and is flirting with other girls. He also deleted a very important email that I sent him. (I saw over hsi shoulder while he was on his email at school) One night when were about to break up went sent eachother love letters..eh. emails saying how much we loved eachother and promised never to delete them. He did. I feel like he doesn't like me anymore and I'm just being a moody bitch about everything. Well thats the way hes making me feel. arugh. Then to continue with the stress so much is going on in my life right now, and my mom thinks I'm a lying basterd and won't leave me a lone. I'm really insecure and I just don't know what to do..when I try to talk to one of my friends about everything they just blow me off... so I guess thats why I'm tell you...if anyones reading this, about it. Life is a bitch.

Introductions/Lessons in what we want and need

Hey lovers!
This is my blog as you can tell. What I put up here really has no theme. I write when I write, about what's going on in my life? Boring eh? Well not really.
I guess this is the part where I explain who I am. Introductions. Well my name isb'y Mandi Mishaps but I guess you'll never find out what it is ;P. What can I say? I'm a girl, and like most girls I have feelings just about everything. I belive in differnt things then most people, and agree with some on other subjects. I hate to be like everyone else but I guess that's just how thing turn up sometimes right? Well I have a family and friends a boy friend and all that crap but doesn't everyone? I love thrill. It's what makes life exciting. I'm daring and love to try anything new. Anything. Most of friend think I'm basically scared of nothing but I guess I haven't really let them know everything about me yet. The two most horrid things are heights and the dark, Always gets me.

Well what else can I say about my self? Like I said before I'm a girl. I'm medium cute, somewhat populare, and is a to guillible and belives anything. I'm a pretty freeopen spirit and loves to be around people. I could never be a loner. I like who I am...and owuldn't change who I am
Now here comes the exciting part. Gossip.
As any story begins though I have to tell you the prolouge. Boring I know. But it has to start out this. I'm dating someone named Justin. Who never talks to me at school, and has never gone out with me on a date. But I know he likes me. I just know he does. Ok so the story starts at band. I decided to go tot bathroom when my friend *Sara walked out of the room and walked wiht me to the bathroom when we got there she said that Justin was a player and all and like my friend *Jane. As I said before I am a guillble and belive a lot of things so of course at first I belived her. So then later that night I asked Justin about it and he said "Nah were just really good freinds" There was some other stuff too, so I was some what convinved that he only like me. Now before I go on I know this is a bunch of Shit but I guess this blog is for me to just write my life down on paper..going on. So over the next couple days we start hanging out a little more and then one day he left school early (we go tot a charter school) and I was talking to Jane. She said that Michael had showed her an email that said he liked her. So Then I asked michael and he said that email was from three weeks ago and we started dating a little less then three weeks ago. So jsut to be sure I asked him to send me the chat that he had with Justin (the one that Jane was talking about).
Ok so that's enough about that part now time to do some explaing with a whole nother part. Nick and Zach.
Nick is the guy I have have started to like ever since me and jsutin have been dating. If me and justin have to ever break up I woudl go for him. H e doesn't like me, ane I don't know why I like him I jsut do :) anyway we are pretty good friends hung out a couple times. Then theres Zach He is like the guy who is gay and you can to about everything and could never like...well thats about to change cause Ive been hearing a rumor that he likes and that kinda makes me like him shallow I know. Well thats the end of that story for now.
Last part is a little thing I have been thinking about called jealousy. We all have felt it before and usally have it when we see something that we can't have or is better then soemthing else we have.But today is about relationships. You see this girl named Dan and Lauren are dating right and on their Status's for gmail it says "Things I'm thankful for, food family and that beautiful blond girl at ********" and vice versa for Lauren. This made me very jealous because me and justin haven't even gone out on a date yet, and we have said Ily to each other before we were going out you know as friends so idk if its real or not. Oh well thats another road. Well anyway I just wish our relationship was like this.

Well that's all I got! Coming up is deatils about movies with Zach. More gossip/Drama. How all the things I meantioned are going!

Thanks for reading speard the blog around at least to one person thanks!! Bye Lovers!

xoxo